Current thoughts
It’s a cold Tuesday afternoon. Walt, my nearly 2 year old is napping in his room, I’ve just eaten pumpkin soup and eggs and avocado on toast. I’m trying to fit a lot of different things into this 1 hr nap and my brain is buzzing with day 6 energy, telling me the ground is fertile for new shoots to pop up all over the place. My problem is with first knowing what to focus on and then being able to focus on those things! So me getting it all down on paper is an attempt to try to do that.
Thought #1
I’ve been thinking about gentle marketing. This ‘business’ (I prefer to call it my passion project) is very small, and does not have many readers (you my reader thank you for reading and being here it means so much!). But I’m wanting to experiment with this. To see if I can grow my mailing list in a calm, Highly Sensitive Person Way. I was thinking I could turn this into an email/blog series, documenting my steps and thought process along the way with My Well community. The thing is I’m running this alongside 3 days of work outside the home, looking after my child and all the things that go with living this wild life. And I’m imagining a lot of you are in the same boat. You would like to work on your business in a calm way, none of this hyped up energy that much of the internet calls for. If you’re keen, let me know!
Thought #2
I’ve been listening to ‘Enneagram and coffee’ a now retired podcast by the lovely Sarah Jane Case, and I’m reminded of the characteristics of being an Enneagram 4. Fours often have a need to be understood, to express their authentic self, and to find significance. We are often drawn to deep emotional insight and a strong sense of meaning. We may also be prone to envy and self focused and thinking of what is lacking. This is me. I feel I lack what others have. Not in a material sense, but in an identity sense. ‘Am I of value? What is my role here? So instead of focusing on what I have in front of me, I go around trying to add more things to satisfy my thoughts of ‘maybe this will be it’. Maybe this will make my life better.’ Maybe then I will be valued, liked.’ So a lot of my work is here, is detaching the meanings to things. For e.g. I can enjoy the work I do without having it be about me. And reminding myself that not everyone feels emotions so deeply, that is okay. I need to allow space for others to be themselves and be very different from me. Coming from a place of ‘I am enough and I’m allowed to be me.’ We are all amazing but also ordinary humans and much of life is pretty ordinary. I need to remember that and enjoy the lightness that brings.
Thought #3
I’m a little inpatient with some things in my life right now. Work pieces havn’t quite come together and I feel like I’m in limbo. This probably has to do with my Type 4 tendencies. The thing is, there is never a time where life just stops or things fall seemlessly into place. It is in the messiness that life is. So I’m trying to just be in it and enjoy the surprises along the way. Yesterday I had to go to Newcastle for a work thing and took the rest of the afternoon off, I was home, by 1pm, had lunch, went for a ruh in the glorious sun, did some work on our back deck. It felt so good to have the day more varied. I want more of this!
Thought #4
I have finally gotten back into cooking. My siblings and I often share photos of our nightly dinners on our group messenger, it’s quite cute. So far this week I’ve made slow cooked chilli con carne, penne pasta with roasted veg and the pumpkin soup. I’ve also had a newfound appreciation for cheese toasties as has my child, who gets very excited about ‘ostees’. As well as chicken, avo, cheese and salad rolls (pictured below). Very yum on any day.
I feel like I had more thoughts, but I will leave it there.